I am sure we all ask ourselves am I doing enough?
Should I be doing more?
Meh… F*** It. Everyone survived.
Being a parent comes with so many feelings. Joy, sadness, anxiety, anger, and more. When you are pregnant you read lots of books and articles online. Your goal is to be the perfect parent. I am going to make my own baby food, encourage learning activities, and limit TV time.
Then the fun begins. You are up every 2 hours for two years, there is constant crying, and lots of blow outs. What a blast… Then for some reason you say “let’s go for round 2.” I have no Idea why, but we forget how miserable the baby stage was… We think having a second or third kid will be fun till you are the one controlling the chaos.
At this point you feel selfish, maybe even a little depressed. Your body does not look the same, you have less time to yourself than you did before, and you give up snack time. No one tells you when you go for your own snack that you will have to share it… Or you eat in the pantry or a closet to avoid sharing with the little vultures.
It is hard trying to be the perfect parent and work a full time job. I work 5 days a week and joggle day care, school, homework, dinner, and chores. Sometimes there is too much TV just because I want a mental break from it all. Then I feel bad for watching too much TV. Is this going to rot their brains? Have I been on my phone too much? I should be spending more time with them…
These are all thoughts that go through my brain. At the end of the day, even though I am exhausted; I am thankful both my children are loved and get everything they need. Even if it wasn’t homemade or organic. I am learning it’s okay to not be the perfect parent. I am learning to be more present and spend more time with my children. I am reading more compared to being on my phone. I get out so my kids can be social. Parenting is a continuous learning experience and as long as you are trying your best that is what counts.
