Motherhood can be rewarding however, It can also be very challenging. Mother’s need the strength to ground the household. We clean, cook, wait on our kids every need, organize, do household chores, and more. Some of us work full time as well. We don’t get the luxury of having a sick day or day to ourselves, we just keep moving.
That is what this week looked like. Unfortunately, even though I wanted time off from work to recover from my seizures I couldn’t. These have become so common for me. I have no paid time off. I have to go to work to make money, to take care of my family. In California there is no living off one salary. Now back in Ohio, that was possible but not here. Moms’ push themselves all the time. It becomes an instinct. The is no slowing down, just what is the next task.
This week I had to get the strength to get through each day of work. Feeling dizzy, lightheaded, and nauseous. Counting down the hours to go home and rest. Thankfully, my husband took care of dinners and helped with the kids but it is all still exhausting.
On top of everything I can’t drive till the end of the month. I am an adult child. Being 30 and not being able to go or do anything you want without supervision is hard. I can’t even be left alone for long periods of time. Mentally it is hard to wrap my head around. I was completely normal just over a year ago. Everything women do for their children, I struggle with on a daily basis. We are supposed to be strong and show no weakness but I feel like lately I have been useless and weak.
One day I will get back to normal or as normal as I can get. The hardest part is seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Parents’ remember life is not perfect. There will always be challenges. Always be kind to others. You never know what someone is going through. Remember as long as your kids have been fed and are happy, that’s all that matters in that moment.
